So, I'm going through the Experiencing God workbook for my devotions, and today's study was on God's love. I've always had a hard time with love ... what is love, do I have it, do I really show it, etc., etc. I know, I'm weird, but it's a hard concept for me. And, so, when I spent time in prayer, I asked God to show me what love was.
A few minutes later a client called, and while I was on the phone with her, I hear devilish giggling in my bedroom (I had the baby monitor on in there). So, after I get off the phone, I go to my door, which I find locked of course, and hear the laughing getting louder and louder. It's a good thing there is a door to the backyard in our room, because I can go around back and unlock it with the key.
So, what do I find when I get in there? Hmmm, Max with a bottle of nail polish (empty by now) with polish all over the floor, himself and Izzy. At this point, now that I can reflect on it, I guess I'm glad it was white nail polish, as it blends in quite well to Izzy's fur, but at that time, I found NOTHING good about this. And as I'm chasing Max through the house, yelling at him, I'm also yelling at God in my head, "Is this your idea of showing me love?" I mean, come on, Steve's out of town with Katelyn and it's just me and the boys, and Max is acting like this! Can't he help me out here.
You know, God probably just laughs at me. I just learned something about His love and how it's unconditional and doesn't change with our circumstances, and I sit there questioning it because my naughty two-year-old is ...
acting like me.
God showed me today that even though Max is naughty, I don't stop loving him. Yes, I'm pretty mad at the moment and I may lose my cool (which I don't know if God gets as mad as I do ... but then again, he did want to wipe out a couple cities!), but I still love him and when he tells me he's sorry, my heart breaks because it's so sweet.
God's the same way. I'm pretty naughty in my own ways (laziness, impatience, gossip, and on and on and on) and God probably looks at me like I looked at Max ... "she's so naughty, but I still love her."
Off to clean nail polish off the dog and floors. Now that's my lesson on love for today. Anita
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Ugh....nail polish on the dog AND the floor?! Yikes! I think that would for sure put me over the edge of sanity! Love your insights. Very inspiring. And did you enjoy the study Experiencing God? A few yrs. ago I did that study with a small group of women in Texas...big hair country ;) And it was good....although we were all too young to get it, maybe?
You know, you really should keep going with your blog. Not just because I selfishly would like you too ;) but 'cause they are really, really good, Anita! Think encouraging many, many women AND possibly publishing some day???
Thanks for sharing again :) Love it!
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